“I am not afraid of storms, for I am learning how to sail my ship.” … Louisa May Alcott
I seem to have had a navigator who thought it was his job to steer my little boat through some of the toughest storms on the planet. When questioned about this disturbing habit he responded: “Well, you learn the most from the stormy seas – maximum bang for the buck you know!” Right after that explanation … I decided that I need a new rudder-man … someone who understands the difference between the easeful, gentle kind of learning that I have in mind and the shredding-the-canvas, flooding-the-boat-and-nearly sinking-the-whole-darn-enterprise kind of lessons that he obviously thinks are appropriate. I need someone who understands Balance and Moderation!
As Louisa May Alcott said: “I am not afraid of storms” … neither the emotional nor the physical ones. In fact, I think that I’m turning into a relatively good (if not slightly damp) sailor … it’s just … after all is said and done down here on good-old-Planet-Earth … I feel that enough is enough … and it’s definitely time for a break. I know the signs … and I see a couple of huge, disconcerting patches up ahead (and as you probably guessed I am referring to my medical journey.)
On the bright side I also see some clear sailing. And whilst I understand that Life may choose to aid and abet said navigator in his educational endeavours … at this point in my life I am making a choice for calmer sailing … even if it’s only a brief respite. Don’t get me wrong … I like my navigator – I learn a lot and I see people and situations that I would miss if it were not for the challenges with which he presents me, however, for now … or at least the next few months … I would like to meet some of the people who live on the sunny side of life.
I know that Faith is the wind that blows my little boat’s sails. And that Life is the Mysterious One who keeps said boat afloat in the worst of storms. I know how to sail in and out of tough times, I’m grateful for the moments of peace when I can clear my head and heal from the latest adventure and I appreciate the time to take a big breath as I sit on the dock, eyeing the horizon. Perky Polly and I have decided to sit down and have a heart to heart with Life AND the Navigator. We believe that we can learn just as much right smack in the middle of a loving, calm lunch at the dockside café as we can in the midst of turmoil. So … we’re negotiating for either a bigger, more comfortable boat so that we can weather the storms of life more easily … or … fewer storms, more dock and beach time with one-on-one tutorials instead. Polly and I think that, that sounds really good.