“The life I touch, for good or ill, will touch another life and that in turn another, until who knows where the trembling stops or in what far place my touch will be felt.” … Frederick Buechner
I find that I am in the midst of redefining myself. I always thought that by the time that I had reached my mid-fifties that I’d just “know” everything about myself. In my twenties, fifty years old seemed just that … old. If I gave it much thought at all I probably envisioned some kind of happily-ever-after or, at the very least, a nice stable, comfortable life. Funny how life has a way of surprising you isn’t it!??!
So, here I am … 50-something … and having a serious look at where I’m going. After everything that’s happened in this life of mine … the ups … AND the downs … I am at a point where one of the big questions is: “What brings me joy?” What is it that brings a smile to my lips, sparks the passion of my soul to burst out into the world and causes a resounding: “Yes!!” to echo throughout my insides? And once I find this wonderful something how do I make it my life’s work so that no matter what I do or where I go the joy that I feel right down to the tips of my toes is shared with everyone around me?
Recently, on this voyage of discovery, I have had a couple of big ah-ha moments. I wasn’t really surprised to find that I enjoyed writing. The surprise came at the depth of joy that sharing through writing and speaking gives me. I love sharing my little (or big) insights and watching the light of “ah-ha” come on in another’s eyes – whether that be face-to-face or by written comments. As I re-assessed the Senior’s Home Care business which I started and ran before this big medical adventure I discovered that the kernel of my original passion and joy was still there … I had just misplaced it under all of the “shoulds”. My joy blooms in both of these endeavours and I think it’s because, as Frederick Buechner said: “The life I touch, for good or ill, will touch another life and that in turn another, until who knows where the trembling stops or in what far place my touch will be felt.”
My joy is to share and my joy is to uplift. The winds of life may blow me to strange lands every once in a while, but as long as I keep my attention fixed on the gyroscope of joy that resides in the center of my being then I can never be blown too far off course. My joy reaches out to others, and then, hopefully, their joy will touch others, which will then touch others … well you get the idea. The time of discovery and sharing is at hand – shall we dance?
Godspeed and Arinaste (from my heart to your heart)