“When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.” … Alexander Graham Bell
I have found that life often has a way of turning out very differently than I imagine that it’s going to. I don’t know about you, but I can think of lots of times when I was sure that I knew either where I was heading or what was going to happen only to be completely surprised as one of the Universe’s famous curve balls came flying out of left field to send me running off in another direction.
I think that I have finally stopped saying things like: “Well now I understand.” Or “Well it’s pretty clear where I’m going now!” or other similar taunting statements that seem to be designed to tempt fate and invite the Universe to illustrate to me just how much I don’t know. As a friend once said to me: “The more I know, the more I know how much I don’t know…” Oh yeah!
I actually don’t mind living in the uncertainty as much these days. I used to have a burning need to have all my “i’s” dotted and my “t’s” crossed and to know – if not every step of the way to “there” – then at least a really good outline of the trip. I have come to realize that a lot of that need came from a real insecurity that if I didn’t know “the way” then maybe I just wasn’t good enough, smart enough … enough of something … to reach my desired destination successfully. I found that, that approach and iron grip on the future did not lead to me gliding effortlessly towards my goal, but rather placed me smack-dab in the middle of an ongoing battle between “the flow” and control. Let me tell you … control almost always lost!
I have had my share of looking regretfully upon closed doors. I’ve had my times of complaining about doors that slammed shut in my face and I’ve had my fair share of kicking said doors in a royal temper tantrum. I’ve learned that the Universe doesn’t pay much attention to tantrums … and I’ve learned that, that is a good thing! For every door that has closed I have found new hallways that lead me to new wide-open doors that in turn take me to places the likes of which I had not imagined or foreseen. Every day when I awaken I look out upon vistas and possibilities that make me smile and gasp in awe and wonder. The closed doors of my past no longer matter … because the Universe has captured my interest and captivated my heart with Its incredible and awesome generosity and support. Today is the first day of the rest of my life and today I choose to keep an eagle eye open for whatever new doors the Universe chooses to place in my path, knowing that wondrous dreams live on the other side – waiting for me to arrive.
Godspeed and Arinaste (from my heart to your heart)