“So many of our dreams at first seem impossible, then they seem improbable, and then, when we summon the will, they soon become inevitable.” … Christopher Reeve
Three years ago I figured that I was well on my way to building a successful Home-Care organization and to easefully cleaning up my inner landscape. Three years ago I had my sights set on my future and I felt confident that it would unfold exactly as I intended. Three years ago – plus one day – I was diagnosed with an extremely rare form of bone marrow cancer and my intentions and my plans all changed.
You know it’s funny … even in the darkest times I never felt like I was alone. I had the presence of old friends, new friends and amazing family and as an added bonus I was gifted with the Voice of Life whispering in my ear. Right from the beginning I knew that, although the future that I had previously envisioned had been radically altered; it wasn’t really gone … it had just been put on hold for awhile.
Throughout the years of therapy, infections and major surgeries it often seemed that my dreams of a “successful” world career were impossible … but still the little inner Voice of Life whispered: “Don’t give up.” … so I didn’t. Instead I added some new goals … some “Improbable” goals … along with a whole lot of will … both mine and that of Life. And you know what? Today I am in remission … that’s goal #1 met! The infections have gone the way of the dodo bird, surgeries have all been accomplished and I am learning to walk again … that would be goal #2 done!! The Inner Landscape is looking decidedly neater, cleaner and a lot prettier now that Life and I have cleared out the fears, angers and gaping inner wounds … so I guess that would be goal #3 done too! It would seem that those “Improbable” goals have been accomplished and that makes me smile.
Perky Polly is shining up our dancing shoes in excitement over the great results we’re getting at physiotherapy and Sunshine Sue is singing again … that’s always a good sign! I’ve noticed that the awesome synchronicites of Life are really starting to flow … potential new clients who are looking for some help in their homes are calling … I got an e-mail from a woman who, whilst looking through an old magazine from 2002 (imagine!) found an advertisement for the commission paintings I do – and wants one … and interest in my books is picking up … well what-do-you-know. So … I’m off to dance with Life and embrace the apparently, amazing future that It has in store for me … because I realize that … once I brought my little will into alignment with Life’s awesome will … good things just became “Inevitable”!
Arinaste (from my heart to your heart)