“If you cry because the sun has gone out of your life, your tears will prevent you from seeing the stars.” … Rabindranath Tagore
My life is so different from the way it used to be. It doesn’t look anything like I thought that it would. There are days when it seems that I am a novice driver; whose duty is to steer the wildly exciting train upon which I ride … through the often tumultuous present … into a future that is bright and shiny. The old life that I knew is gone … and the new one has not yet landed.
Before I entered into the cycle of life … illness … healing … rebirth … I had plans … big plans. During the cycle my plans went on hold and I went on hold and the learning phase of my life accelerated. I wondered if I would ever again find a way to bring to completion new “big plans” and there were days when I cried because it seemed that the sun had gone out of my life.
I was wrong. Rabindranath Tagore was right: my tears… shed over the perceived loss of past glories and sunshine … were simply spilled water over which I could paddle on my way to tomorrow. I learned to remember to appreciate every moment and to look; not backwards, but constantly forward. As I did so I found that whole new vistas opened up for me so that … now … I can “see the stars” and truly appreciate the new life that is miraculously opening up before me.
Before major illness came knocking on my door I walked around in the sunshine … thinking that this way of living was “the top of the mountain”. During my Challenging Years I missed the sunshine … thought it was lost and learned that … with Life by my side … nothing was ever truly lost … merely transformed into something new and different. Today … I dance under starlight, meander under moonlight and once again revel in sunshine. I no longer confine myself to only enjoying one form of light … life and Life have both shown me that awesome beauty and opportunities to thrive exist everywhere. My inner Sunshine Sue has joined forces with Starlight Sally … and together we’re making life into a great big celebration … time to kick back and enjoy the night sky … and then … I think we’ll follow that up with some ice cream at dawn …
Arinaste (from my heart to your heart)