“When I stand before God at the end of my life, I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left and could say, “I used everything you gave me.” … Erma Bombeck
Now I’m not really sure that I want to show up in front of Life … at the end of this life … looking like a little, dried-up prune … however, I can certainly agree with Erma Bombeck’s sentiment. I want to reach the end of my days … look back at the long years … and be grateful for all of the gifts and opportunities with which Life presented me … and be proud of myself that I never said no to said gifts and used them to be and to help others to be the best that we all could become.
My journey through life has often seemed like a walk through a blast furnace. Some of the situations that have arisen have been challenging in the extreme … yet throughout my journey I have always been blessed to receive wondrous and fabulous synchronicities to help guide me and to remind me that Life is definitely paying attention. So … in retrospect I think that I would have to modify my “blast furnace” analogy and simply say that … in recent years … I have often wandered through the heat of a great potter’s kiln.
At the other end of said kiln I find that the majority of my misconceptions … about life … about the world … and about me … have been burned away. In their place Life has brought to the surface of my clay; qualities of being that bring me joy and carry me out into the world. The compassion that always lay not too far from the surface has blossomed into a drive that seeks to give aid where aid is possible and the artist’s soul … that lay buried for so many, long years … is now in the foreground … sharing hope, inspiration and … more joy … with those around me.
My inner Sunshine Sue is really sparkling these days. Polly and I have got used to wearing sunglasses around her and Life just smiles at the bright spark whom she has become: saying that It knew she was here all along. We’re a happy bunch out here … feeling like the recipients of a Life-sized surprise package. You know what the most amazing part of all this is to me? It’s that this joyous “me” was always underneath my ordinary looking and acting outside … I just never knew. It looks like I’m going to have something in common with Erma after all … and all because Life was gracious enough to help me to uncover the Me-I-Was-Meant-to-Be … “Thanks Life … You’re the best!”
Arinaste (from my heart to your heart)