“If I take a lamp and shine it toward the wall, a bright spot will appear on the wall. The lamp is our search for truth… for understanding. The light is not the goal of the search … it is the result of the search: the more intense the search, the brighter the light on the wall. Someone who does not search – who does not bring a lantern – sees nothing.
Sometimes we stand in front of the light and assume that we are the center of the universe – God looks astonishingly like we do … or we turn to look at our shadow … and assume that all is darkness.
If we allow ourselves to get in the way, we defeat the purpose, which is to use the light of our search to illuminate the wall in all its beauty and in all its flaws; and in so doing, better understand the world around us.” … Citizen G’Kar –Babylon5
Like G’Kar; I am a seeker. Throughout my life I have always carried a metaphoric flashlight with me … shining it into dark corners … doing my best to uncover the beauty and the living presence of Life … so that I might share It with others. Sometimes my flashlight ran out of batteries and I found myself wandering around darkened rooms feeling frightened, abandoned and alone. At other times it seemed to me that Life replaced my itty-bitty, little flashlight bulb with a 10,000 watt spotlight that illuminated the “What-Isness” of situations and people and placed me in the unenviable position of being the proverbial bearer of bad news.
After years of light-shining I have learned a few things:
- “Shining my light” is best received and appreciated when I use it … as G’Kar so eloquently put it … as a “search for Truth … for understanding” … rather than as a means to make a point
- Standing in front of said light obscures the view and forces me to use my imagination to fill in the gaps.
- Filling in the gaps with imagined “facts” gets in the way of really, truly understanding what the heck is going on and almost always leads to misunderstandings and confrontations … both internal and external.
- Seeing clearly will help me to understand “What Is” in every situation. This does not guarantee that I will like everything that I learn … but it does guarantee that it will be the Truth.
- Assuming that my world has come to an end and that all has turned to darkness and ash simply because my bulb has burnt out or my batteries need recharging is a severe case of over-reacting. Take a breath Susanne. Rummage around in the dark until you find a new bulb and batteries in the third drawer from the top. Replace said old, non-working parts with up-to-date, state-of-the-art components and carry on.
- And lastly … I have learned to welcome with open arms the many, various and awesome examples of Life that It has scattered around this amazing world for our (hopefully) joyful experiencing.
Sunshine Sue & I are heading off to the local, Celestial electronics store to upgrade my flashlight to one of the new digital models … we hear that the level of understanding that comes as a result of using these bright, intense little babies is awesome. We both think that that’s really cool and we can hardly wait to see what turns up in our world next!
Arinaste and Joyful Journeying Everyone!