“If you will call your troubles experiences, and remember that every experience develops some latent force within you, you will grow vigorous and happy, however adverse your circumstances may seem to be.” … John Heywood
My life has been chock-a-block full of “experiences”! The last decade alone has been an education in the many and varied means that Life has of both illuminating me as to my untapped potential, hidden wounds, patterns and resistances and It’s vast and seemingly unlimited capacity to support, nurture and teach me through said troubling experiences.
I have learned through more challenging and personal means than I would ever wish on anyone that death is a door through which the amazing sparks that make up the joy-filled and vibrant people whom we know pass when this set of experiences is done. I have learned that my wishes of prolonging said departure time from this Earth matter not at all … and I have learned that although there may be times when it feels differently … I never stand alone.
I’m sure that I must often have presented quite a challenge to Life … stubborn, defiant, lonely and longing for love. And yet Life never gave up on me … even when I gave up on myself. Troubles came and went and I learned how to perceive them as challenges which I could overcome. After three years of battling a critical disease challenges turned into experiences and I discovered some of those “latent forces within (me)” of which John Heywood speaks.
Today I joyfully dance … granted as my body heals it’s mostly in my imagination … but still I dance … and I never feel alone … for Life is an excellent partner whom it seems; never misses a step. It is constantly reminding me of the joy of living … gently guiding me to walk a completely different path from my precious one … and promising that together we will co-create a beautiful future. My inner Sunshine Sue is beaming again. Perky Polly is definitely full of “perk” these days … and I … well I am enjoying growing “vigorous and happy” in all of the wondrous … and sometimes challenging … experiences that are coming my way.
Arinaste (from my heart to your heart)