“To change who you are, change who you think you are.” … Jonathan Lockwood Huie
Like most people, for the majority of my life I was defined more by what other people thought of me than by what I thought of myself. As an ADHD kid I learned early on to read the signs written across other people’s faces and the signals that were broadcast in their body language. It was just so much easier to avoid trouble that way. Unfortunately it also seriously stunted my Being-Who-I-Really-Am muscle!
It has been my observation that everybody is so busy trying to live up to someone else’s expectations … dodge criticism and negative feedback and in general duck and weave their way through life that the end result is that virtually nobody is being true to themselves … if they even know who that is anymore.
One of the really great things that came out of my jumbo-sized medical crisis is that I have finally figured out that the best thing that I can do for myself … and potentially for everyone else … is to just be me. It’s taken a fair bit of excavating to uncover the Me-Whom-I-Came-Here-To-Be … but I’m happy to report that eventually … after much digging in and cleaning up of the inner landscape … that I did indeed find me … and now I am here to stay.
I like this new me … this original Being who decided to trip the light fantastic through this world. I combine the best of Miss Perky and Ms Sunshine with knowledge learned at the School of Hard Knocks and Social Graces. I am no longer defined by the opinions and thoughts of those around me. These days I use Inner-Me as my compass … my gyroscope … my MapQuest Guidebook … and my Celestial Miss Manners Guide to Proper Behavior. I still don’t do things like most other people do … but finally I’m O.K. with that. I have re-discovered the me whom Life created and I have decided that if I’m good enough for Life then that’s good enough for me.
Godspeed and Joyful Journeying Everyone