“Anyone who knows me should learn to know me again; for I am like the Moon, you will see me with a new face everyday.” … Rumi
Like most of us … at every stage of my life I have been someone different. At each one I have moved into the next stage with varying degrees of ease and great excitement and varying amounts of kicking and screaming. However … no matter how painful or easeful … how exciting or filled with dread my transitions were … at each one I was born anew … beginning a new journey of discovery … both of myself and of the world around me.
As a child I was precocious and determined … loving and strong and I had more energy than a whirlwind. Living with a wounded mother and an overworked and stressed-out dad taught me the fine art of ducking and weaving … and so … I transitioned into the next phase of life … becoming observant but reserved … loving and ferociously protective and still with more energy to burn in a day than most people managed to scrabble together in a week.
Journeying through my teens taught me coping skills … perhaps not the best coping skills around but the ways and means to hide the Truth of me deep inside where it would be safe. I learned to be a people pleaser. I bet you know that skill! It’s the one that we pick up that convinces us that we should make everyone else happy long before we please ourselves … and it was a really hard habit to break.
After traversing the hills and valleys of marriage, motherhood and divorce … Voila … I was … yet again … someone new … someone I almost recognized … someone very similar to the child whom I once was. Apparently Life really liked my inner, little kid … and as It’s contribution to finishing up my inner child’s re-emergence into the world … It walked us both through a landscape filled with bone-jarring crises.
So … the good news is: I’m back. Miss Perky is definitely precocious and fiercely determined. Ms Sunshine is loving and strong and we still burn through more energy in a day than most people do in a week. We’re wiser than we used to be and we’ve given up ducking and weaving in favor of speaking our mind … with as much tact as we can muster … and then letting the chips fall where they may. We don’t choose to hide anymore … now we walk, dance and run with Life … and every day … we learn more … change more … and share more of the previously hidden faces of our Heart and Spirit … with Life … with ourselves … and with the world.
Godspeed and Joyful Journeying Everyone